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Old Friends Forgotten

Written October 25, 2009

It’s time to let you go,

Since time won’t keep you here.

These years have pieced together one sum of every fear.

I could keep a moment locked inside my head,

You would take a memory alive and drag it back as dead…

To a person, you’re someone.

To a heart, you’re the beat.

To the only eyes that see you,

You’ve only shown deceit.

Old friends forgotten when a new one arrives

From a place you have known

To a place I now despise.

~A.L.J~

The Change That Causes Difference

Written February 1, 2009

It’s funny how much changes before you realize the difference.

The questions forming answers you never thought you’d reach…

Believing in magic that is merely illusion,

Defending the delusion of what exactly differs…

Standing on arguments that can’t hold their ground,

My back against a wall the past constructed…

As I’m concluded in this pattern,

Grown into a world much larger than my expansion.

Waiting for the picture to descend

For a way I might amend

The change that causes difference.

~A.L.J~

Keeping Things You’re Bound to Lose

Written April 5, 2010

Your breath, the stale dead smell of promises,

Lies echoed in the moments of your absences…

Your brain, fueld by loss you’ve gained,

Willed to live in something past,

Delusion feeds the rotting mass…

Your lines, empty, faded, drawn-out in former times.

You’re everything, I’m what?

What fades away is more than just.

Endless nonsense, leading truth

Back to off-beat patterns of your youth…

Engorged with dreams you’ve counted on,

These broken roads you’ve ran along…

To fester, only humanly of course,

For the one small seed you laid off course…

Recycle the moments glued to your head,

Remember the names you’ll forget in the end.

Your cruelty just an empty soul

That burns away extinguised coals.

You’re uninvited, half-alive,

Bleeding hearts have gone to dry

Reeling heartache back to you

When you’re keeping things you’re bound to lose.

~A.L.J~

You’re Loud

Written August 24, 2010

You’re loud, just loud.

You’re talking, breeding nonsense, but you’re loud.

You speak of what you know,

But what you don’t know,

Is that you know nothing at all.

You’re loud. Just loud.

Talking nonsense, making ears bleed,

Making hearts rage, building bridges over nothing.

You speak of what you know,

But what you don’t know

Is that you know nothing ta all.

You’re loud. Just loud.

Hold yourself up high upon that throne,

You know they won’t catch you when you fall,

Pretend that you’re the one that saves,

Just smile like you know it all.

Keep talking, breeding nonsense,

But you’re loud.

Words distorted in the noise,

The utter annoyance in my head,

In silence with your eyes, or screaming down on others,

You’re loud. Just loud.

~A.L.J~

Half-Sincere Humor

Written November 18, 2010

I find it funny, but not really,

The way we’re growing, half-sincerely…

Paths engraved, wicked days, demons fed and thrown away…

 

I find it funny, but not really,

The way we’re changing, only merely…

Minds made up, half giving up, taking on a new reality…

 

I find it funny, but not really,

The way the darkness is seen clearly.

Obstacles and obligations, the circle wearing on my patience…

 

I find it funny, but not really,

I see the humor all too clearly.

The insignificance of our clarity

And the truth in our reality.

~A.L.J~

 

Silly Hearted Dreamer

Written July 7, 2010

I’m just a silly-hearted dreamer, a silly-minded girl,

Silly feeling, silly thinking, in a silly kind of world…

Expecting disappointment, knowing well the truth,

That once it’s going, it is gone, whats lost was meant to lose.

Uplifting forms of hoping, being let down by the show,

The pitiful reactions of the hearts we still bestow…

Embarassed to confirm it, hardened by the acting,

Transparant words reveal your mind and sincerity that you’re lacking…

Drawing lines worth crossing, later on to be erased,

Re-making things worth more to me than the burden of your weight.

And still I’m left here tasting bitter words that stain my teeth,

For when I spoke this years ago, I left out a missing piece…

The part that really meant it, the closure it encased,

You said goodbye and meant it without keeping a trace…

Although I knew you’d left me, although I knew that was the end,

That part of me had kept it there just incase you came again…

I no longer will be waiting, I no longer will believe,

No longer will I come again in the hopes that you’ll still be.

I’m just a silly-hearted dreamer, a silly-minded girl,

Yet no longer will I live in such a silly long-gone world.

~A.L.J~